thankyou letter ♥

just a short thankyou letter for those that cares alot for me . (:

LiXuan .

my best sister in PRSS. thanks for everything that you had done for me! really. i'm sorry if i never treasure the things you had done for me well. but from now on, i'll promise to treasure them. and horhh, stop the things that i tell you through whataspp. since you already promised me. must keep the promise :D and if you have any problems, whataspp, message or call. i'll be there. reallyy. you means alot to me. reallyy. ♥ and horhhh , last long. :p i love you♥

Jane .

my best sister for life. thanks for everything you had done for me. i know you have alot of problems. but never do silly things anymore. remember, you're not living in this heartless world alone. you have me, Kowee. don't keep everything to yourself and act happy infront of everyone. you can break down infront of me, of us. i promise i'll be there. if you need me. never never give up on your problems. jiayouu for mye. stay strong! you're not forever alone. there's people that cares for you, like me! iloveyouuu ♥

Kowee .

my awesome sister. A.W.E.S.O.M.E! lol. thanks for everything! never do silly things for him or others. rich girl. xD i always think you're a girl with no problems but until i saw those scars.. i'm wrong. so if you have those same problems again, free to find me. stayy strong(: all the best for your mid-year exams. i love you alot. ♥

ZioZio .

my best senior & jie in volleyball. ♥ hehehe , just saw your post on your blog. :p thank you for sending me those long & encouraged messages... (: and everything you had done. appreciated lots. i'll love a girl with scars. ♥ really. i like the way you're now. i know you have alot of problems too. stay strongg. somedayy, everything will be alright. "smile and be positive. " by ziozio. hahaha. you so pretty & cut . i jealous. >< anyway, jiayouu for your mid-year exams! iloveyouuu. ♥

Felicia .

my best senior in volleyball. thanks for everything that you had said and done to me. "a girl who will never be good enough for everyone" you're good enough for me alreadyy. (: anywayy, i might not be the one you trust or what.. but reallyy, if you have any problem, please free to tell me... (: stayy strongg^^ all the best for your mid-year exams. you so pretty. i so jealous >< iloveyouuu. ♥

Leonidas .

my kor for volleyball. hehehe, thanks for keeping what i say to you to yourself and everything you had done for me. i'll remember what i promise youu, so don't worryyy. stop keeping your problems to yourself.. remember to tell me about it when you're free. :D jiayouu for your mid-year exams. continue to stay strong (: i love you as a korkor. ♥

a really big thankyou for them♥ without them, i might still be the girl who do silly things to herself. so, a big big thank you!! from now on, i promise to treasure the times spent with you guys. ♥ iloveyouguysss . :D

smiling outside. crying inside.

a fake smile & everybody thinks that you're fine . 

" 为什么我会生出你这种女儿。又笨又丑。我去生猪生狗都比生你好。" 对，为什么你要生我到这个世界上？我知道我笨。我丑。猪跟狗都比我好。如果我是你，我也会觉得生猪，狗，都比生我好。

" wah . volleyball skills so lousy , still join volleyball for what . go join choir lah . so stupid . wonder why you in academic class instead of technique class . maybe even technique class also don't want you . stupid . who want you , so stupid , ugly , a bitch . " yes , my volleyball skills damn lousy , i know . i shouldn't join volleyball at all . if i didn't join , i won't know him , scars won't come .. but at least in volleyball , i know that is still people who cares for me , like ZIO , FELICIA(: maybe choir also don't want me . i know i stupid . shouldn't stay in academic class to drag down others in the class . who want me ? NO ONE . even myself . i also don't want myself . 

but really really really thanks alot to ziozio & felicia. they really help me alot . :x like what i said , i won't regret joining volleyball just because of him . it is because of him , i know the seniors .  and know there is still people out there caring for me . although i don't know it will last long anot , but at least for now , i know . just want to tell them this :" ziozio , thanks for giving me advices and lending me your shoulders when i'm down . thanks for sending me encouraged messages ... telling me i won't be a burden for youu . although i know i'm . :/ anyway , you're never a failure . if you have any problems and cannot find anyone to talk abouut , come find me ... i don't want everytime i'll be the one telling you all my problems ... :p iloveyouuu . (: " 
" feliciaa , thanks for giving me advices telling me that no matter what my family says , they still love me . i don't know if i'm a burden for you anot ... but really , i'm sorry if i am . don't say yourself is useless . no matter if you can help people anot , you're not useless at all . (: if you have any problems and cannot find anyone to talk abouut , come find me ... and horhh , you're never a bitch , okayy . iloveyouuu . (: "